Back in high school I had a dream to be the frontman of a band. We were going to call ourselves Torment, and I wrote many song lyrics for the band. Today, I’m bringing you the first of many of those song lyrics. I really hope you enjoy them as they give you a peak into the twisted mind of this writer.
VERSE 1:
Suicide
Weighs heavy on my mind
Wondering
Should I take my life
Nothing in this world
Seems worth living for
Everywhere I go
I’ve been there before
Wasting time
All the wasted years
Thinking of it all
Brings me to tears
What have I done
Nothing for me to show
Before I go
There’s something you should know
CHORUS:
I loved you
YOU HATED ME
I’d die for you
YOU GIVE NO SYMPATHY
What did I ever do
TO DRIVE YOU AWAY
Just tell me we’re through
END MY LIFE TODAY
VERSE 2:
Sitting all alone
In the middle of the night
The barrel of my gun
Gleaming in the moonlight
I lift my head
Up toward the sky
As I prepare
Myself to die
I try and clear
My aching head
Thoughts cease to be
Am I already dead
I pinch myself
Just to see
Am I gone
Or is it still me
CHORUS 2:
I loved you
WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME
I’d die for you
WHY CAN’T YOU SEE
What did I ever do
TO MAKE YOU GO AWAY
I’ll take my life for you
IF YOU’LL COME BACK TODAY
VERSE 3:
Death it seems
Is so mysterious
You and I
What went wrong with us
Still sitting here
Still want to die
You left me here
Didn’t even say goodbye
You smashed my heart
You killed my pride
All that’s left for me
Suicide
The only choice
To be by your side
I was already dead
The day you died
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Hi Daniel
This is my first visit to your site, and I first read this well-written yet intense and troubling piece about suicide. As one who has faced family suicidal tendencies over two generations, I’m interested in what’s prompted your writing of such a dark piece. Firstly I’m concerned, are you ok personally and emotionally? With such a well put together site, I assume you are doing ok at the moment. I am praying for you now – let me know if there is any more I can do. Is this piece related to some of your stories? God bless you abundantly, Colleen
Hi Colleen,
First of all, thank you for the comments. Suicide is a struggle for many people, but especially teens.
I wrote the song about 25 years ago as an exploration of the devastation of losing someone you care deeply for. The real point of the song, for me, was the thought that continuing to live after such a loss was nearly unbearable. So, the suicidal thoughts represented more of a desire to purge the pain than to take one’s own life.
Again, thank you for reading this and for your comments.
Sincerely,
Daniel